Yes, I’m finally appreciative for the not-so-satisfying events in my life!
Just the other day I went to, what I thought, was going to be a great collection of artists, writers and thinkers. I planned the day for weeks. I couldn’t wait to spend countless hours wandering and talking to engaging thinkers and creative types. And I was disappointed when I got there. “Why did I spend my money and time to even get in here!?,” I thought to myself as I tapped my foot and pouted like my 3 year old does SO well. Then, I stopped. Between the many people buzzing around me, so excited to be in this place, I TOO caught on to some joy. “Wait!,” I said , and I realized that I wasn’t happy to be there. This place that I THOUGHT would bring me joy and ideas and maybe even some networking, didn’t. It just didn’t. And that is just fine with me. It actually was a lesson in proving to me just how powerful thoughts are (thank YOU, Byron Katie!) and that experiences of non-joy can be learning experiences too. I now know that I do not want that experience. I do not want that particular network and I do not want to follow just that exact direction.
Yes, it was WORTH every minute and penny to be there. And yes, I actually did find one or two organizations that were of some interest, but I was SO very grateful as I left for the true knowing of just what I didn’t want. I’ve embrace the feeling so I can recognize it again and learn more.
Every person, every event, every situation is brought to us for a REASON. Always. There’s no way of getting around it. Every one of those people and places is a learning opportunity. We just need to understand that those opportunities aren’t always blue skies, blue birds and cherry blossoms. They’re also cranky people, grey skies and spilled milk. We learn – always – and we can embrace it and move on or ignore it and have it repeated and repeated until we finally get it. Until the light bulb finally goes ON. I’ve had some light bulb moments, but this was more like “WAKE UP!” as someone had been slapping me in the face and I FINALLY got it!
I look now, every day, at all of the experiences I conceive as “negative,” and I take a nice breathe in and learn how truly appreciative I am. Yes, I’ve know there are no coincidences for some time now, but I had this fairy tale notion that they just had to all be that – fairy tale-like coincidences. No, they’re not. They’re ugly at times. Ugly, mean and rotten. But once you embrace and accept them. Once you recognize they’re just thoughts about events and people and they’re not all “real,” they stop. There is this door that opens and there is a BIG sigh of relief. There’s light and no dark. It’s an amazing transformation. It’s a beautiful thing, understanding. It can be so simple and yet, take us so long to “get” – but once you do – it’s truly wonderful.
I’m going to take out the garbage and clean out my office now, it’s not pleasant but I’m SO appreciative – who knows what I’ll find! Ugly cleaning projects just went from “ugh” to “OH!!!”